Can you handle the truth?

So as part of the change therapy that I have currently undertaken.. I have decided to be completely and brutally honest. No sugar coated truths. No lies. No regrets. Just plain simple TRUTH.
So you want to hear the diva talking? Good. Listen up then.
To Sarah: I dont like you because I think you are a mean and selfish person. You always put yourself before others and never bother to understand the other person's point of view. You are obsessed with yourself and you think that the world revolves around only you. Well, honey, it might come as a shock...but the world DOES NOT revolve around. So, babe..go get a real life where you actually care about the people you call "friends".
To Josh: It's ok to be the way you are. Why the hell are you so bothered about what others will think/say? I don;t understand why you suck up to people so much. Why is it so important for you that everyone who you talk to has to like you? Be your own person, Josh. I'll be there for you more often if you do.
To Isaiah: Yes, I love you. I'm hopelessly in love with you. Even when you choose to ignore me. I can;t help it. Though I think that you are a self-centered git and that I will never allow myself to be anywhere near, I still will love you. I think it's that one drunken kiss that we shared...or maybe the fact that I can't have you...i will never know...but all I know is.. I hate the fact that I love you so much
To Clark: You're the best person on this planet that I have ever met. I'm sorry that I was ever rude to you and that we still are not over it. But if there was ever a person that I could turn to ..it's you
To Madeline: HOney, it does'nt matter what you think . I DONT CARE. Stop pestering me with mindless gossip about people i dont know and don't want to know. I JUST DON'T CARE. I avoid you because you are annoying, dumb and pathetic.
To everyone else: If you know me and don;t get me...chances are you never will...if you know me and hate me..it does;nt matter...if you don;t know me and want to know me..you'll have to try really hard.

This is ME. No strings attached.

CHange

Been listening to Sheryl Crow's A Change Will Do You Good and it kinda feels like she is singing right at me.

I NEED A GODDAMN CHANGE.

Change in the way I feel. Breathe. Listen. Talk. Make Love. Sing. PLay the drums. Trust my "friends".

No I am not hating my life right now. Just this moment here. This particular time in my life. When e'thing is moving at the speed of light. If e'thing could just slow down. Take a second.

Maybe a change from it all will do me good. Maybe Not. But I'll try it out. Try something new. different.

Wish me luck. I'm about to take the plunge.



Chasing dragons with plastic swords
Jack off Jimmy, everybody wants more
Scully and angel on the kitchen floor
And I’m calling buddy on the ouija board
I’ve been thinking ’bout catching a train
Leave my phone machine by the radar range
Hello it’s me, I’m not at home
If you’d like to reach me, leave me alone


A change would do you good
A change would do you good
Hello, it’s me, I’m not at home
If you’d like to reach me, leave me alone

WTF

What the FCUK was I thinking?I mean SERIOUSLY!!!
OK..before you begin to wonder what is it that I'm freaking out about...it's this: I found this guy on campus really cute...almost Justin Tmberlake HOT! And what do i do when he asks me out (finally!).. I blurt this out: "Umm... well I have better plans on Saturday. Cya"
You should've seen the look on his face.. GAWD! I have "better" plans...You have not idea how much I have been kicking myself for this.
Sarah (that's the girl who I like to think is my best friend) can't stop laughing..but well.. screw her! Why? oh why did I say that? Of all the things I could've said...

**Sigh**

No Ordinary Morning

Been listening to a lot of Chicane lately. I stumbled upon this track called " No Ordinary Morning" and it almost moved me to tears. The lyrics are so ordinary yet have such an intense underlying emotion.

"We moved too fast but I had no signs
I would try to turn the hands of time
I look to you for a reason why
The love we had passed me by"

It takes me back to my first breakup when he completely disappeared from my life one day. Till now, I have no clue where he is and why did he leave me hanging loose. But I guess it's life. Things are not always the way we expect them to be. We all hate breakups, for it marks the ending of something wonderful that you had for some time. It usually represents the breaking of a bond that you shared with another human being who almost became a part of you.
But what we all fail to see is that it also marks the arrival of something brand new. Exciting. A new relationship with a toatlly different person. Someone with whom you will share a new kind of happiness. After a few of days of gloom, I always bgin to feel a tingle of excitement. I am a diehard romantic.

I know my soulmate is out there and he is looking out for me too. I just have to wait for the day we bump into each other.

Slow Addiction

Kylie Minogue- Slow

Slow down and dance with me

Yeah, slow

Skip a beat and move with my body

Yeah, slow

Come on and dance with me

Yeah, slow

Skip a beat and move with my body

Yeah, slow"

OOOh! This is by far the sexiest video I have seen. All those delicious men around the pool with tiny shorts.. gawd! the feeling is almost orgasmic. Damn..I wish it were me instead of that blond Kylie...lying amidst those insanely good looking men.... And the track is so fucking sexy. One that makes you want to rip off that teeny weeny peice of cloth off the hawt men and well...

What's my fav bit from the video? Definetly, the beginning..when that guy plunges into the pool. It so goddamn sexy and shot superbly. All those angles and curves... WOW!

Rihanna-Rehab

Rihanna's Rehab video which features Justin Timberlake is yet another fab video. Though Rihanna looks pretty much ok (rather tolerable)...it is JT who simply takes my breath away. Esp. when he comes riding on his bike and then goes under the shower..all wet and glistening.. he looks immensely hot and handsome. With a guy like him, how can you not be addicted!!!

"It's like I checked into rehab

And baby, you're my disease"

Bittersweet- The Mating Game

ok..so I dont't care much about the video of this song, but there are two awsomely sexy things about this track-

1) sexy sexy sexy vocals..if I were a singer, this is how i'd like my voice to be..

2) the lyrics- it teases, it invites and can potentially drive the men crazy. The song and it';s lyrics subtley ooze of sex and oomph.

"Hold me close enough to drink my rose
The devil in my pocket turned to gold
Sorry to warn you, you're in a daze
Tonight I'll love you, but tomorrow go away

Step right up who's the next contestant
In this sweet charade?
Take a number, wait while I tease you sane

On the mating game"

Amore

Boys, how do you turn me off successfully? Here's how:
1. If I have the most obvious crush on you, you DONOT ask me to give you tips on how can you get the captain of the female hockey team to notice you
2. If I;ve kissed you goodbye on our first date and you say that you will call when you don;t intend to..you've certainly gotten on the wrong side of me (and you don;t want to do that)
3. If I catch you checking out another girl's booty with me walkng with you, u'll definelty be feeling that aching pain in your groin later (that will last longer than you thought it would)

Boys, you gotta make me feel sexy. You gotta keep all the love coming.
"Amore,(can you give me all the love)
sexo (can you give me all the sex)
Amore,(give it to me all night long)
my love is on and on and on
(turn me on and turn me on)"

Woohoo!

"Well my heart knows me better than I know myself
So I'm gonna let it do all the talking"
Oh my evil heart!

Are you ready for the diva to strike?